Shimmering Silver

Lauren O'Connell

Compositor: Lauren O’Connell

I was waiting for a moment alone
Sat beside you when you got home
I took a breath and you took out your phone
So I just did the same
I just did the same

I tried to be the simple answer
I tried to be the ground for you to stand
I'm trying to know what’s out of my hands

Change the song to whatever you like
I'm too tired to change your mind, so
Turn it up if you’re feeling inclined
To wander to the sound
Wander to the sound

The distant rustle of a woman undressing
Who could’ve kept you but kept you guessing
Another Sun that didn’t say it was setting
When it called you outside

Any loving and helpless tune
Will be old before it’s halfway through
And any light I leave on for you
Will be dim next to the Moon
Who am I next to the Moon?

‘Cause I swear I caught you stealing glances at shadows
Drifting off on the back of a half note
I’ll never know what it was that you had so
Why would I try

But I can just see it through your memory’s filter
Singing back, all in shimmering silver
Like there is nothing alive that could fill your
Heart with such light

If I could only make you talk in your sleep then
Maybe I’d know the ocean you’re keeping
You never look me in the eye when you’re dreaming

I tried to be the simple answer
I tried to be the ground for you to stand
I'm dying to hold what’s out of my

In the arguments I write for us
About the things I know we’ll never bring up
I always ask if I can only be
What you want when I am gone
Will I haunt you when I'm gone?